Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Warning: Why Ma Nature is such a freaking B****

My body hates me. I admit it. She is a cold hearted bitch, who has no care in the world, that I'm suffering through all the endless shit she puts me through. Take a "normal" month for me. For about 2 weeks, I'm ok. I have a few aches and pains but nothing I can't handle. Then I have a week of PMS symptoms so bad, it can be down right debilitating. Then Ma Nature swoops in and lays her almighty fist in my nether regions and it's lights out for me.  This past week was a real doozy for me. I got completely knocked on my ass. I was fine last week. In fact, I was great. Better than great... I was in such a terrific mood. Then I started feeling sick and I knew what was coming. The dreaded PERIOD was on her happy little merry way and I couldn't stop her. I tried! I fought like hell. I told that bitch to go back from where she came from. I bitched and moaned. Nothing worked. I could feel myself wearing down. I was throwing up, I couldn't eat, my pelvis was cramping and throttling so hard you would have thought Elvis was in the room. I started to get a fever and lost all concentration. I was down for the count. Ma Nature got me in her clutches and she wasn't letting go. You might be saying, "Well every woman deals with that." My answer is yes, but I have some real medical conditions that not every woman has. So what exactly do I have, you ask? Well, I'm glad you asked that question.

I have a few different conditions which can be somewhat overwhelming. Here are my conditions in no uncertain order: endometriosis, dysmenorrhea, premenstrual syndrome, post tubal ligation syndrome,premenstrual dysphoric disorder, menorrhagia, a tilted uterus, and suffer from ovarian cysts. Plus I have a compromised immune system due to my severe asthma and allergies and I have Dysthymia and situational anxiety disorder. I know, I know! It's a mouth full, right? What exactly is all that, I'm sure you are probably asking. Well, I'm here to give you little breakdown of what exactly I deal with. 

Dysthymia and Anxiety Disorder
I've talked about my Dysthymia and anxiety disorder in another article I had written. Basically Dysthymia, also known as persistent depressive disorder (PDD), is a mood disorder consisting of the same cognitive and physical problems as in depression, with less severe but longer-lasting symptoms. 
Symptoms of Dysthymic disorder include:
  • a poor appetite or overeating,
  • difficulty sleeping or sleeping too much, 
  • low energy, 
  • fatigue and 
  • feelings of hopelessness. 
The term "anxiety disorder" includes generalized anxiety disorder (GAD), panic disorder and panic attacks, agoraphobia, social anxiety disorder, selective mutism, separation anxiety, and specific phobias. People with generalized anxiety disorder display excessive anxiety or worry for months and face several anxiety-related symptoms.
Generalized anxiety disorder symptoms include:
  • Restlessness or feeling wound-up or on edge
  • Being easily fatigued
  • Difficulty concentrating or having their minds go blank
  • Irritability
  • Muscle tension
  • Difficulty controlling the worry
  • Sleep problems (difficulty falling or staying asleep or restless, unsatisfying sleep)
Treatment options are usually anti depressants, beta blockers, and therapy. Sometimes you have to try different types of medications to find the right drug that works.

Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder
Premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD) is a condition in which a woman has severe depression symptoms, irritability, and tension before menstruation. The symptoms of PMDD are more severe than those seen with premenstrual syndrome (PMS). PMS refers to a wide range of physical or emotional symptoms that most often occur about 5 to 11 days before a woman starts her monthly menstrual cycle. In most cases, the symptoms stop when, or shortly after, her period begins.
Many women with this condition have:
  • Anxiety
  • Severe depression
  • Seasonal affective disorder (SAD)
  • Other factors that may play a role include:
  • Alcohol or substance abuse
  • Thyroid disorders
  • Being overweight
  • Having a mother with a history of the disorder
  • Lack of exercise
Here is a list of common PMDD symptoms:
  • Lack of interest in daily activities and relationships
  • Fatigue or low energy
  • Sadness or hopelessness, possibly thoughts of suicide
  • Anxiety
  • Out of control feeling
  • Food cravings or binge eating
  • Mood swings with bouts of crying
  • Panic attacks
  • Irritability or anger that affects other people
  • Bloating, breast tenderness, headaches, and joint or muscle pain
  • Problems sleeping
  • Trouble concentrating
Treatment is lifestyle changes, antidepressants, and oral contraceptives.

It occurs when tissue similar to the endometrium (the lining of the uterus) is found outside the uterus on other parts of the body. 
It affects girls and women during their most productive years, and can impact all aspects of their lives – school, careers, finances, relationships, and overall well being.
Generally, endometriosis is found in the pelvic cavity. It can attach to any of the female reproductive organs (uterus, fallopian tubes, ovaries), the uterosacral ligaments, the peritoneum, or any of the spaces between the bladder, uterus/vagina, and rectum.  Endometriosis can also be found, though less commonly, on the bladder, bowel, intestines, appendix or rectum. Symptoms may include abdominal pain, heavy periods, and infertility. 
Treatment options include pain relievers, hormones, and surgery.

Premenstrual Syndrome
Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) is a group of symptoms linked to the menstrual cycle. PMS symptoms occur 1 to 2 weeks before your period (menstruation or monthly bleeding) starts. For some people, PMS is just a monthly bother. For others, it may be so severe that it makes it hard to even get through the day. PMS goes away when your monthly periods stop, such as when you get pregnant or go through menopause. PMS often includes both physical and emotional symptoms, such as:
  • Acne
  • Swollen or tender breasts
  • Feeling tired
  • Trouble sleeping
  • Upset stomach, bloating, constipation, or diarrhea
  • Headache or backache
  • Appetite changes or food cravings
  • Joint or muscle pain
  • Trouble with concentration or memory
  • Tension, irritability, mood swings, or crying spells
  • Anxiety or depression
Many things have been tried to ease the symptoms of PMS. No treatment works for every woman. You may need to try different ones to see what works for you. Some treatment options include:
  • Lifestyle changes
  • Medications
  • Alternative therapies

Menorrhagia is the medical term for menstrual periods with abnormally heavy or prolonged bleeding. Although heavy menstrual bleeding is a common concern among premenopausal women, most women don't experience blood loss severe enough to be defined as menorrhagia.
With menorrhagia, every period you have causes enough blood loss and cramping that you can't maintain your usual activities. The signs and symptoms of menorrhagia may include:
  • Soaking through one or more sanitary pads or tampons every hour for several consecutive hours
  • Needing to use double sanitary protection to control your menstrual flow
  • Needing to wake up to change sanitary protection during the night
  • Bleeding for longer than a week
  • Passing blood clots with menstrual flow for more than one day
  • Restricting daily activities due to heavy menstrual flow
  • Symptoms of anemia, such as tiredness, fatigue or shortness of breath
Treatment can include iron supplements and birth control contraceptives.

Dysmenorrhea is the medical term for pain with menstruation. There are two types of dysmenorrhea: "primary" and "secondary".
Primary dysmenorrhea is common menstrual cramps that are recurrent (come back) and are not due to other diseases. Pain usually begins 1 or 2 days before, or when menstrual bleeding starts, and is felt in the lower abdomen, back, or thighs. Pain can range from mild to severe, can typically last 12 to 72 hours, and can be accompanied by nausea-and-vomiting, fatigue, and even diarrhea. Common menstrual cramps usually become less painful as a woman ages and may stop entirely if the woman has a baby.
Secondary dysmenorrhea is pain that is caused by a disorder in the woman's reproductive organs, such as endometriosis, adenomyosis, uterine fibroids, or infection. Pain from secondary dysmenorrhea usually begins earlier in the menstrual cycle and lasts longer than common menstrual cramps. The pain is not typically accompanied by nausea, vomiting, fatigue, or diarrhea.
Treatment is oral contraceptives and anti inflammatory.

Post Tubal Ligation Syndrome
PTLS symptoms are more wide-spread and involve other areas of the body not commonly associated with female reproductive organs. Women with Post Tubal Ligation Syndrome symptoms often report extensive symptoms involving many different areas of the body. These symptoms can include migraines, joint pains, hair and nail changes, skin changes, abdominal pain, and many other symptoms. There are many attributed Post Tubal Ligation Syndrome symptoms. 
The most predominant symptoms are:
  • Heavier periods and Painful periods 
  • Hot flashes
  • Irritability and Mood swings 
  • Insomnia
  • Decreased sex drive 
  • Anxiety and  Depression 
  • Memory changes 
  • Headaches 
  • Brittle nails and Hair loss 
  • Feelings of dread/apprehension
  • Itchy skin 
  • Joint pains
  • Vertigo/dizziness
Treatment can include sterilization reversal, hysterectomy and hormone replacement.

Tilted Uterus
In most women, the uterus tips slightly forward (anteverted), toward the bladder, but in some women, it tilts backward (retroverted), toward the spine. A retroverted uterus may be caused by an underlying condition, such as endometriosis or pelvic inflammatory disease (PID). And these conditions – not the angle of the uterus itself – can make it harder for you to get pregnant. They can create scar tissue that may make it more difficult for the egg to get through the fallopian tube to unite with the sperm.
No treatment available

Ovarian Cysts
Ovarian cysts are common, especially with woman who still get their period. They’re solid or fluid-filled pockets in or on your ovary. Most of the time they’re painless and harmless. You might get one every month as part of your cycle and never know it. They usually go away on their own without treatment. Cysts are also common when you’re pregnant. A cyst becomes a problem when it doesn’t go away or gets bigger. It can become painful. There’s also the possibility of cancer, but it’s rare. The chances go up as you get older. Most ovarian cysts are small and don’t cause any problems. When there are symptoms, you might have pressure, bloating, swelling, or pain in the lower abdomen on the side of the cyst. This pain may be sharp or dull, and it can come and go.
Cysts usually go away on their own but in some cases birth control pills will need to be prescribed. In rare instances surgery is needed.

Asthma and Allergies
Asthma is a condition in which your airways narrow and swell and produce extra mucus. This can make breathing difficult and trigger coughing, wheezing and shortness of breath.
For some people, asthma is a minor nuisance. For others, it can be a major problem that interferes with daily activities and may lead to a life-threatening asthma attack. The same system that helps protect you from infections, your immune system, can also be responsible for your worsening asthma. You may notice that at the same time you have that runny nose, watery eyes and sinus congestion, your peak flows are lower, you are wheezing more, and you may experience more shortness of breath. The immune system normally protects you against foreign bacteria and viruses. In asthma and other allergic diseases, the immune system may be the cause for your worsening symptoms.
Asthma can't be cured, but its symptoms can be controlled
Asthma signs and symptoms include:
  • Shortness of breath
  • Chest tightness or pain
  • Trouble sleeping caused by shortness of breath, coughing or wheezing
  • A whistling or wheezing sound when exhaling (wheezing is a common sign of asthma in children)
  • Coughing or wheezing attacks that are worsened by a respiratory virus, such as a cold or the flu
Signs that your asthma is probably worsening include:
  • Asthma signs and symptoms that are more frequent and bothersome
  • Increasing difficulty breathing (measurable with a peak flow meter, a device used to check how well your lungs are working)
  • The need to use a quick-relief inhaler more often
  • Treatment can involve the use of cortisteriods, leukotriene modifiers, and long acting/ short acting beta agonists
An allergy is a reaction by your immune system to something that does not bother most other people. People who have allergies often are sensitive to more than one thing. Substances that often cause reactions are Pollen, Dust mites, Mold spores, Pet dander, Food, Insect stings, and Medicines. Normally, your immune system fights germs. It is your body's defense system. In most allergic reactions, however, it is responding to a false alarm. Genes and the environment probably both play a role. Allergies can cause a variety of symptoms such as a runny nose, sneezing, itching, rashes, swelling, or asthma. Allergies can range from minor to severe. Anaphylaxis is a severe reaction that can be life-threatening. Doctors use skin and blood tests to diagnose allergies. Treatments include medicines, allergy shots, and avoiding the substances that cause the reactions.

So there you have it! My whole list of conundrums. Pretty fucked up, I know! I have to take on daily to semi daily basis: an Anti depressant (Zoloft), a Beta Blocker (Tenormin), a Sedative (Sonata), 2 short acting Bronchial inhalers (Proair HFA and Ventolin HFA), Nebulizer medication (Albuterol), Nasal Spray (Flonase), leukotriene receptor antagonist (Singulair), antihistamine (Loratadine), Epinephrine Injector (EpiPen), Cortisteriod (Prednisone), and an Anti Inflammatory (Naproxen).....  To some it up, I probably suffer from a whole lot more than any one has in their entire lives. Some the medications I take above are as needed like my Epi Pen and inhalers, but most all of this is a daily thing. I refuse to go on Oral contraceptives and I definitely refuse to have a hysterectomy. I have thought about have Tubal reversal Surgery though. Only problem is insurance doesn't cover it and it's well over $6000. That's money I just don't have. You can also see how a lot of these disorders actually tie into one another. Now I think you have a better understanding of why I say my body hates me and why you shouldn't judge someone on outer appearances. You never know what that person is going through underneath all those layers. 


  1. Gurl, you are strong! I can see writing is a form of therapy for you. Very informative yet engaging. I wish i could help, but medical anomaly sometimes also genetically inherited. You are such an inspiration

    1. Writing definitely is my therapy. Some of these I had never heard of until my doctor diagnosis me. I'm sure there are other woman who chalk up their PMS symptoms to normal woman issues. Unfortunately that's not always the case. You are correct when you say that some conditions are genetically inherited.

  2. Thanks for sharing this post with lots of useful information. You are such a strong person, dealing with so many conditions but still standing tall. keep writing and hope you feel better.
    Trupti Bhatt

  3. wow...I just have normal two days cranky and three days bloating and that seems bad enough. Hat's off to you because I can't imagine what you go through every month.