Monday, April 17, 2017

Learning to live and love again

I'm sure you are wondering who I am and where did I come from?

I was recently asked what is my back story and do I really have 6 kids? I have to chuckle at that because first off, who says they have 6 kids if they really didn't? That's just weird. Second, I probably wouldn't even be writing this article if it wasn't for my wacky lovable kids.

My 6 kiddos

I have tons of stories to tell, but as I told my fiancee', this isn't really about my past but about all the things I'm dealing with now. This can be anything from issues of the neighbors dog crapping in our yard, to the newest tasty recipe I just made for my family. My blog covers a whole bunch of issues that everyone wants to talk about but might fear some of the repercussions that may come with discussing them. In my case, I learned that you can't make everyone happy. So why try? It's not worth it. So, if I say something that may piss someone off, my main reply is "Oh fucking well."
So yes, I do have 6 kids and their names are, Robin, Tyler, Kelsey, Jarod, Aislynn, and Alexander.

I had Robin at 16 years old and Tyler at 17 years old. Yes, they both have the same father. Their dad skipped out when I was pregnant with Tyler. It was rough raising them on my own for awhile but I knew I could do it.

Robin as a baby
Robin's Senior Picture

Tyler baby picture

Tyler now

A few years after I had Tyler, I started dating again. I eventually met Peter*. We got married after having 2 kids and then had our last 2 children. Our marriage died each year, as I was the sole breadwinner and received no help raising our kids. I worked 2 jobs and still had to come home and take care of the house and children. Peter* turned violent when I divorced him. I had to get a restraining order taken out on him. What I think sucks, is that he got a slap on the wrist with just a misdemeanor and a fine. He currently sees the kids when it's convenient for him. As of right now it has been about 2 months since he has last seen them. I think I'm lucky I got out when I did. The 4 best things that came out of that marriage are my kids.

Kelsey baby picture

Kelsey Senior Picture
Jarod as a baby

Jarod looks so happy. :)

Aislynn Baby Picture
My happy girl, Aislynn

Alex is always smiling

Alex and his joyful self

I started dating again and then remarried after a few years. Raul* had 2 children from a prior marriage, was a marine veteran, and had a really good job. After 5 months of marriage, Raul* quit his job with out warning. I took on working 3 jobs, going back to school to get my high school diploma, taking care of the house and all the kids. He did nothing to help. Plus he was a damn asshole. He would bitch about everything. Then treat my kids like crap while treating his kids like gold. I was right back where I was in my first marriage. How did this happen? At this point, I didn't care. I said bull fucking shit. I'm out, he can go to hell. I kicked Raul* to the curb faster than the speed of light. I was not putting up with the bull crap a second time. I learned my lesson. I divorced him and have never been happier. I even took back my maiden name back. There was nothing to tie us together. We never had kids together, which I think made the whole process easier.

Fast forward to now. I'm currently engaged to a great guy named Eric. He is simply the best. I never would have thought, I would ever remarry after 2 failed marriages. Well, technically 1 since I don't count #2 at all. ( I mean, really.. Clean break, even a name change, and marriage lasted less than 2 years.) Eric thought for sure I would say no and who could blame him, after all I went through. He had no need to worry.

Love this guy
I know my heart and he's what I've been waiting for. I went through hell and back. He helped me overcome my fears. My kids love him and he loves my kids as if they are his own. He will watch over and protect them with every fiber of his being.

My goofs!

We are his world and he is ours. I can proudly say he is behind my dream of attending college to earn my Associate's degree in Human Services. Another bonus is that I was able to quit my job, which I hated, to have more time with the kids and school. He works his ass off to provide for us, and I'm so appreciative of him.

Pictures of me and my guy

So that's my little back story. It shaped me in to the person I am today. This shows that I'm not the perfect mom. I've made mistakes, but I've learned and grown from them. Thanks to the love and support of my kids and my fiancee', I'm learning to live and love again.

* Names have been changed

Best wishes, Michelle


  1. Beautiful family you have! Good for you for opening up and moving on. Love is something that we all need I think sometimes when we get hurt and block it out it only makes us more miserable. Happy for you.

    1. Thank you so much! It definitely did take me some time to even let Eric into my life. I was hurt so badly, that I basically was giving up on ever having a partner to share my life with. I have to say, he never gave up on me, and I'm glad he didn't

  2. Thank goodness you got out when you did, I am so glad you've been able to find someone amazing to love and care for you again . Much love to you and your family xx

    1. Thank you! I'm glad I recognized the signs when I did. I knew I couldn't live like that and especially have my children subjected to that. I've definitely found a keeper now.

  3. Beautiful family, so happy you found someone that makes you happy. I wish you the best of luck!

  4. I commend you for staying strong for your children through all of your struggles. I'm happy you found someone who can make you happy. By the way, you have a beautiful family!

    1. Thank you so much! I wanted to give up a few times, but I knew my children were counting on me. I'm glad I saw the signs when I did and am so thankful Eric came into our lives. He never once gave up and proved he really could be there for not just me but my children as well.

  5. What a wonderful story and your children and all beautiful! God bless your entire family. It's so nice to see and hear all the happiness and blessing. thanks so much for sharing it made me smile all the way though!

    1. Thank you!! Thanks for reading my story and I'm glad I could make you smile. That's always nice to hear. :)