Wednesday, April 19, 2017

It's the Final Countdown... No seriously it's finals week at school

Yes! Almost done with school... kind of... It's time for finals and I cried like a bitch. I've never studied so hard in my life. I don't even remember studying this hard when I was in high school. Morning, noon and night, my face  has been crammed into my books. Tons of research and hours of writing. My hands are cramping just thinking about it. It was a beautiful day outside and I was just a bit upset that I would have to be inside for finals.

I'm not a perfect straight A student. I do my work, show up for class, participate in class discussions, and am involved in various school clubs and organizations. That being said, when it comes to tests, I get severe test anxiety. Hence, my saying not straight A student. My grades can slip because no matter how much I study or don't study, I will forget basically everything. It's probably why I love open book/ open note tests so much. It's less pressure, than having to remember everything. On this particular day, I actually was feeling pretty good. I studied but I really wanted to study some more before class started. I purchased myself a yogurt and a blended java, then got to work, studying my ass off.

Luckily a few of my classmates found me cramming for the test. We all decided to have a big ole power study session. Quite honestly I think that helped relieve some of the stress I was under. I knew my stuff when we quizzed each other. We were so into the study session we almost didn't notice the time. Luckily we made it with 2 minutes to spare. ( our professor is a stickler for time ) As soon as that test was in front of me, guess what happened??? My mind blanked. I tried so very hard to clear the fog forming in my mind. So I answered all the questions that I was sure I knew. Then I went back and tried answering the questions I was unsure on. What I'm really glad about is that the last 10 minutes of the class, he allowed open book/ open note. That was a huge life saver. I could then recheck all my answers and revise what I wrote. Unfortunately some questions were just left blank. I could not answer them. That's fine by me though. He took my test and scored it. I got an A, even though some questions were left unanswered. My professor told me my overall grade and I'm proud to say I have a perfect score of 300/300 ( due to a whole bunch of extra credit work, no doubt ). It shows that despite my anxiety, I can still get great grades, as long as I work for it. I'm feeling really good about my decision to attend college. I'm showing my children that you can succeed at anything you do, as long as you put worth the effort. I now have 2 weeks off for Spring break, then it's back to school for the next semester.  Watch out world, this mom can handle anything you throw my way.

                                                                       I got this!

Best wishes, Michelle


  1. What an awesome example to set for your kids. I can't imagine how challenging it must be as a mom. I hope to go back eventually.

    1. Thank you very much! It is a challenge but I tell myself daily, that I can do this, not only for my kids but for myself. My goal is to complete my Associates degree and then go on to get my Bachelors Degree.

  2. That's awesome! Well done, I don't know how I could study with children. I was very bad with memorizing and theory and examinations in university, god knows how I would manage. - Afra

  3. Thank you. TBH it is extremely difficult to study when the kids are home. When they are at school I can focus more. Once home my mind is all over the place. I'm constantly getting up to check on them, I have to check their homework, make dinner, make sure they are completing their chores for the day, etc.. Now that they are for the school year, I'm hoping to get them some play dates, so I can do my own homework and studying.