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Wednesday, October 4, 2017

For better or for worse? It's a new dawn, it's a new day, Hell, I'm just trying to get through the week.

So a lot has happened since my last blog post, Life of a... Holy hell, am I coming or going?.. mom.  As you know I had reached a truly stressful time. I was watching 2 children ages 3 and 4 years old. Plus I was homeschooling my own children. Since we still have only one car, I'm the permanent chauffeur. So that means taking my husband to work and picking him up, take my other son to his job, and dropping off and picking up my 2 college kids since they don't drive. I have my own college classes to attend and as you know I had to drop one of the classes due to my extremely busy schedule.

Well a few things have changed since then. First off, my son lost is job but was able to get a new one last week. Fortunately, I no longer have to take him and pick him up from work. His friend who got him in to the company drives him, since they work the same shift.

I no longer watch the 3 year old named A. Mom came up with every excuse in the book why she couldn't pay me. That means I had to stop watching her, because I was already out over $500+. Sure I like to help people, but I don't like being taken advantage of. So, sorry, not sorry. I'm not watching your kid for free. Either pay me or services are terminated effective immediately. Obviously, she didn't pay.

I still watch L. Luckily it's only part time after school and Friday's are full days. I'm ok with that. She's a cool kid. Has some habits and manners that aren't the greatest, but hey, we are working on it. She no longer follows me into the bathroom. HAHA. Yes, that happened. We are currently working on sequencing stories, writing her name and of course, manners.

My 2 college kids are still attending school and getting pretty decent grades. I still have to drop them off and pick them up from school. I've falling into the routine so now it's a bit easier on me. Plus they have taken to walking (about 30 min walk) or taking the bus on some days, which makes it easier on me.

The 3 youngest are still being home schooled. Luckily, it's not me teaching because if it was, I think they'd be screwed. Sure I can teach, but I'm a former preschool teacher. I did not study to be a middle/ high school teacher. Anyway, because it's an online school they have Virtual learning classes in real time. It's just like going to a classroom and listening to a lecture by the teacher, except in this case your classroom is in your own home in front of a computer screen. Then once done with class, the teacher lets them go, and they then have to do a hour of homework. I'm really loving that we found this school. Yes, I know I'm gushing.

My husband still works at his job. He's plugging away the hours and setting a great example for the kids. He's a hard worker and I'm so proud of him. He will be having some changes soon within the company, but I will talk more about that in another blog post.

As for me, I'm attending my classes when I can. Luckily I don't have a set time that I need to attend class. I'm given a date that certain assignments or discussion boards need to be completed and that's it. Obviously, it's college work so it's pretty extensive. So far, I'm holding my own in the classes. The down side is because I've been so stressed about school  and home and jobs.. I think for the Spring semester I'm taking that time off. Right now not 100% sure, but I've been attending college since 2014. If I decide to go Spring Semester, I will definitely be taking Summer Semester off. I need time to breathe. I need to focus on me and my health. Plus, I just want to be able to spend more time with my kids. Nothing wrong with that, right?

Best Wishes,
Michelle

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Life of a... Holy hell. am I coming or going?..mom

 Everyone who knows me or reads my blogs knows I am a super busy woman. I'm a mom to 6 wonderful children and wife to a terrific man. I'm also a college student by day.... At least I was. You might be wondering what the heck does she mean by that? Is she no longer attending college herself? I assure you that hasn't changed at all. Just me schedule has changed. NOT just my school schedule but my entire schedule. How you ask? Well I started a new job and homeschooling my 3 youngest.

In a prior post of mine, The daily grind of this mom life, I had broken down my daily schedule of being a stay at home mom. My day is kind of like that except more chaos. See, my husband and I decided that we would home-school our kids. We were tired of the local school district not giving our kids the education they needed. There were way to many screw ups and we just felt homeschooling was the next course of action. Originally we had decided to home-school the 2 youngest, as the high- schooler still wanted to attend one of the local schools here. We were ok with that as long as the school district got their act together. Plus he had tons of friends and he didn't want to leave them. Well, when we had to do school schedule pickups. They completely fucked up his schedule. They gave him classes he didn't even sign up for. Classes he should have taken where removed and trying to get his schedule fixed was next to impossible. After that catastrophe, even he was done with the school district. He asked if he could be home-schooled as well. I was all for it but I had to move quickly do to school starting in less than 2 weeks. Good thing, I'm quick about these things, as he was able to be home-schooled after the paperwork was transferred over that following week.

Now, I want to make something perfectly clear... My kids are home-schooled but I don't teach them. Technically they go to an online public charter school. It's not in our district but it is a Wisconsin public school. What my husband and I love about this school is that they keep us informed. We can check our kids progress and see what assignments have been turned in and grades received. We can see what homework is due on any given date, even dates due in October and November. We can see exactly what homework was turned in and any comments the teachers gave. The school sends us copies of the emails sent to the kids as well. I could go on and on about this school. Yes, I love it that much!

With that being said, you might be wondering how that pertains to my schedule changing. Well, see it's first time the kids are going to school online. It does take some getting used to. So I decided to take my classes online as well this semester. This would ensure I would be home if they should need any help. I signed up for 4 courses and was happy as a clam. I have 2 other sons who are starting college as well, at the same school as me, just they are doing on campus classes. I thought, no biggy. I can take them to and from school since it's not far and still be home for the others kids.

Now here's the kicker. I wanted to make some extra side money, so I thought, "hey, I will become a before and after school driver for a parent who needs it. I can make a few extra bucks and still be home for my kids and still won't interfere with my own school schedule."

So I took on a client and we will call her daughter L. She needed after school pick up and care for about 2.50 hours Mon- Fri and all day care from 7-5:30pm.... I thought, no worries. I'm usually quick to get my course work finished. I will be in class while my kids are in class. I CAN DO THIS!

Then my friend contacts me about needing after school pick up for her children. I look over my schedule and see that I can pick up L first and then still make it across town to get her kids. It still won't interfere with my schedule.

Then I get contacted by another mom who needs before school and after school care for her daughter A. Kicker is she only goes 9 until 11:30. I think to my self. This mom needs help. She has no one to watch her daughter. I've been there, so I sympathize and agree to take her on. Well, then the shit storm starts because guess what? The school district messed up her schedule and didn't admit her as a student, they put her on the waiting list but gave her a teacher and class that she never had to begin with. So know she needed all day care. I couldn't exactly say no because I had already committed to watching her.

So now, I realize, what the actual fuck did I get myself into. I can't do my courses during the day like I wanted to. I can't sit and help my own kids with their school work because I'm watching someone else's kid. I start freaking out but I try to calm my nerves as best as I can.

Then a receive a message that my friend now needs before school drop off for her kids. Yes, I can say I freaked out. I started crying because, how am I going to handle all of this. I have to watch a 3 year old all day. I have to pick up and drop off kids before and after school. I have to watch a 4 year old part days. I have to my own 2 boys to their college classes and still find time to do my own college classes. I have 3 home-schooled children that are still learning the ins and outs of online school... Oh and not to mention the fact my husband now works open to close at his 7 days a week. And I really do mean 7 days a week, no time off and no overtime pay either. Plus we still only have one car, so I'm also his daily driver.


Here's just my daily driving schedule:

7:30am - 8:10am
9:10am - 10:00 am
11:00am - 12pm
2:20pm - 4:10pm
8:45pm- 9:30pm

This brings me to now. I'm finally able to get a day when I can write on my blog. It feels good to get all that pent up emotion out. My kids are understanding how the online school works but they still need help. My 2 college kids have taken to either walking or taken the local bus system when I am unavailable. As for my schooling, I do it in spurts when I can. Unfortunately I did have to drop 1 of my courses because my schedule was just damn full. I also am unable to really give it my all this semester. My day starts 5am and ends at 9:30pm. I'm passed out by 9:45pm before realizing I never got the laundry down, forgot to straight the living room up, and even forgetting to do my own school work.

I'm really hoping that the next few weeks will calm down enough so I can get a better routine in. I did tell my husband that next year, I AM NOT, watching any kids or doing school runs. My education and spending time with my own children was, and should not be put on the back burner, do to watching someone else's children.

What would you do if you had all this on your plate? Tell me in the comments section below what your thoughts are on this subject.

Best Wishes,
Michelle

Monday, August 28, 2017

Bic Gel-ocity Pens

I hoard pens. There I said it. Cat's out of the bag. I can't help it. I see a pen and I need it. It's probably because I always have to write stuff down and can never find a pen anywhere. Could I use a pencil? Sure but then I have to make sure that it's sharpened and has a working eraser on it. I probably should have a pencil sharper just in case the tip breaks. See why it's so much easier to just a pen and write. I was asked to try out Bic's new brand of pens called Gel-ocity. Let me tell you my love for pens went to an all new level. Epic proportions of love.



These pens glide so smoothly over paper, I swear it was like buttering the perfect slice of bread. The colors really made my notes stand out. Being a college student this came in handy.  It was nice to label each section of my notes with different colors as it helped when I was studying for my exams.

I was sent a picture to color or basically have fun with and boy, did I ever!! The colors never bleed into each other nor did it bleed through the paper. It was crazy! What's even better is that it never smudged. Yes, you heard that right. It never smudged once!!!



I am completely astounded by these pens and can't wait to buy the rest of the colors to make my set complete. If you love pens as much as I do, you will love these Bic Gel-Ocity pens. They will definitely make your collection complete.

I received these pens from Smiley360 for free in exchange for my honest review. All opinions are my own.

Best Wishes,
Michelle

The Tea Planter's Wife

I love reading a good book when I get a bit of relaxing time. Usually at night when my kids are in bed. Let's face it. I'm a busy mom and finding time to read is just hard. I currently have 5 bookshelves just over flowing with stories waiting for my hungry eyes to delve into their adventures. I was given a copy of  The Tea Planter's Wife by Dinah Jefferies. to review and I couldn't wait to sink my teeth into it.

Excerpt from Goodreads:
Nineteen-year-old Gwendolyn Hooper is newly married to a rich and charming widower, eager to join him on his tea plantation, determined to be the perfect wife and mother. But life in Ceylon is not what Gwen expected.

The plantation workers are resentful, the neighbours treacherous, and there are clues to the past - a dusty trunk of dresses, an overgrown gravestone in the grounds - that her husband refuses to discuss.

Just as Gwen finds her feet, disaster strikes. She faces a terrible choice, hiding the truth from almost everyone, but a secret this big can't stay buried forever....

Even though  the book started off slow, it really picked up the pace the more I got into it. This book has a lot of twists and turns to it.  It took me a bit to get through it only because I just was too busy to sit down and read in one setting like I usually do. What's nice is that when I did come back to reading the book, I could easily pick up where I left off. The book has 3 sections to it, so it was easy to navigate. I found I was really rooting for the main character Gwen.  She starts off the book kind of meek and really flowers into a woman who can hold her own.

I was a bit lost on the city of Ceylon. When I started  reading I actually thought the characters came from London to the states.  I couldn't place the city, so I had to look it up. I found out Ceylon is now known as Sri Lanka. I really wish the author would have included that into her novel. 

If you are looking for tender hearted romance novel that has some twists and turns in it, then this is a book for you.  I genuinely liked this book and can't wait to read more from Dinah Jefferies. 

I received this book from Blogging for Books for this review.

Best Wishes,
Michelle


Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Simply Earth: August Subscription box review

Everywhere you turn people are talking about essential oils and how they are so beneficial. I have heard from several people about using essential oils for health, wellness, stress, and even help with digestive issues. If people are talking about how wonderful essential oils are, then where do I sign up? I didn't have to look far. A fellow blogger helped me out by guiding me to Simply Earth. I was able to converse with their Manager of Ambassadors and it took off from there. I was sent Simply Earth's August Back to school Subscription box. Let me tell you, I was not disappointed.












I was actually very surprised when I opened my box to see all the cool stuff in there. I was in love. The products were full size and not trials as I assumed they would be. They also sent some recipes so you make your blends right away. How neat is that???


So what is in the box you ask? I'm glad you asked that!

Contents of Box:
Almond Oil 4 oz (carrier oil)
Grapefruit Essential Oil 15 ml
Coffee Essential Oil 15 ml
Focus Essential Oil 15 ml
Copaiba Essential Oil 15 ml
Clay Beads
Roll-on rollers (2)
Inhalers (2)
Recipe Cards

I currently have the Rise and Shine blend going in my diffuser. I love this recipe because it simply reminds me of early mornings smelling breakfast cooking. You can smell the mix of grapefruit and coffee.


Rise and Shine Diffuser Blend

6 drops of Grapefruit Essential Oil
3 drops of Coffee Essential Oil
Drop essential oils into the diffuser and diffuse to start the day off right!



























Now that back to school season has begun, you also know that flu and cold season is right around the corner. They have a blend for the inhaler called Immune Boosting.



Immune Boosting Inhaler

7 drops of Copaiba Essential Oil
5 drops of Grapefruit Essential Oil
3 drops of Coffee Essential Oil


  1. In a small bowl, drop all essential oils.
  2. Using tweezers, drop cotton insert of inhaler into the bowl and allow it to absorb all of the oils.
  3. Place cotton back into the inhaler insert, preferably with tweezers, snap base on the bottom and twist cap on top.
  4. To use, open the inhaler and insert into a nostril while covering the other nostril, inhale deeply. Repeat on the other side. 


As everyone knows, I'm not just a mom and wife but a college student as well. School here starts Sept 5th and guess what? I'm not the only college student this time around. I now have 2 college students and I am also going to home school the other kiddos, 2 high schoolers and a middle schooler. Plus I added in a part time job of care taking for a 4 year old. I have to make out schedules and chore charts that I am sure there is bound to be some added stress in there. That's why I'm so glad that In the August Back to School Box there was a recipe for a stress relieving dough ball.


Stress Relieving Dough Ball

10 drops Grapefruit Essential oil
5 drops Focus Essential oil blend
1 cup of flour
1 cup of water
2 teaspoons of Cream of Tartar
1 tablespoon of Almond Oil


  1. In a large bowl, stir play dough mix, 1 teaspoon of almond oil and water until the dough is no longer sticky.
  2. ( Optional) add in food coloring and roll into the dough.
  3. Drop in essential oils, and "roll" into dough.
  4. Store in fridge for lasting freshness, and squeeze and play when you're feeling stressed or tired.



I literally can't keep the excitement at bay. I love, love, love this product and can't wait to buy more. What's even better is that 13% of their profits goes to help end human trafficking. They also help support various organizations that you need to check out. I am extremely honored to be a Simply Earth Affiliate.

If you want to get in on the essential oil bandwagon. Simply follow this link or check out Simply Earth website.
http://simplyearth.com?rfsn=689841.f032bd

Use Coupon code: MICHELLEKUJAWADUNCANFREE to get a free essential oil ( with your first purchase ) or a $40 Gift card with the purchase of a Subscription box, which can be cancelled at any time.

 Be sure to check out all the products that Simply Earth has to offer.

I received these products free for review purposes. This post may contain affiliate links, which means I may make a small commission off of any product that you may purchase. All opinions are my own.


Best Wishes,
Michelle